Still freaking excited. I have taken his advice and I am quiet about how we’re dating.. Way more quieter than I have ever been before! I do gush about him to Alosha on the phone though, and Shandy and all my other friends are very happy for me. Things seem to make me happy.

Me: [on phone with Alosha] My god, I can’t believe I’m actually with him! hahha!! I knew there was something there!

Alosha: Im so happy for you! But I don’t get why he said all that stuff when he was actually into you!

Me: I don’t know if he was actually into me back then, but I’m soo glad he gave me a chance! Oh my god I liked him for so long… I liked him for so long and he’s soooo cute Alosha!

Alosha: He’s not that cute Shveta.. Let’s stop talkin about him for a while! I am happy for you but let’s talk about something else.

Me: WE BOTH HAVE ASIAN BOYFRIENDS!!!!!!!!

I was up late yesterday, so happy, that now I am late this morning. Makes me want to not go to class! I’d rather not go to first period today.  But I’m definitely going to school! I’m going to dress up! I’m going to look beautiful.

I spend my time dressing up but looking casual at the same time… It’s kind of silly, I think but giggle and smile and laugh to myself. This is so happy, and I can hardly believe it.. This, I think, is to balance out any bad times I’ve had! This is happy news.

I can hardly believe he is mine, my mind STILL questions it.. But today I MUST RELEASE ALL DOUBT! And go with the damn flow!

I see him around at school. Fight the urge to fling myself at him. He smiles. I smile coyly. He gives me a hug, gingerly, when he makes sure no one is really watching. I’m fine with that. He says I smell good… He walks on to class.

I know I spend more time thinking about him than he thinks about me…. But that’s just perfect.

At lunch, he is sitting with his friends and I wonder if I’m supposed to sit with him. He smiles and waves at me, comes over and talks to me for a while, then goes back to his friends.

After school, he says he wants to hang out over the weekend. I say cool, when and where and how? And he says, we’ll figure it out… anyway, I’ve got to go…. He smiles at me in our embrace and i look down, feeling a bit strange.

Then I kiss him, and we are KISSINGGG…. just like in my dream!

We are KISSING!

dating.

Wow. It feels completely amazing. We are now officially dating. Sure, he doesn’t want me to spread it like wildfire but we are together and he likes me… Hmm, how do I keep this to myself?! It’s hard! I don’t know if I can do it! But I keep it all bottled up and just stay happy, and only tell my friends…And if anyone asks. I will calm my pants, as he put it. He says, calm down, you don’t have to tell everyone. You can tell your friends.. We’ll tell everyone slowly. He instructs. Oh god, I’m happy he’s my boyfriend.

He’s my freaking boyfriend, its my first day of having him as my boyfriend. I feel… in a word, excellicious. LOL. He is scared of what people will think, but its okay. We’ll be fine. Maybe I won’t tell anyone. Oh god, I told my mom we were friends now, good friends, and she seemed happy for me, but a little apprehensive. And I told Lakshman and he was like, haha you liked him for so long and he teased me. Oh well.

We haven’t kissed again since that time we kissed. I want it to happen again so bad.. SO HAPPPY!

Me: Hey there.

Him: busy sorry ill ttyl

Me: um.. okay well yeah message me

Him: [after half an hour or so] hey=]

Me: How are you, boyfriend?:)

Him: lol..good, so busy, what are you doing

Me: Well, I don’t know, but it isn’t my homework thats for sure, so I guess I should get started on that. Maybe one day you can help me with data management.. god

Him: well you never asked but sure just come over like tomorrow? is tomorrow a good day?

me: Yesss tomorrow:)))) I’ll ask my mom.

Him: k well still busy ttyl <3

Me: LOL okay byeee:)<33

I am completely, intoxicatingly happy. I feel like nothing can bring me down. The fact that what I’ve wanted for so long has actually happened in my life makes me so thrilled, I can barely speak. I know I deserve him.. I know he deserves me.

He says he loves me. He doesn’t say it all the time, but I know he does and that’s what I want to hear. He holds my hand, tries to make me happy. He makes me happy just being him. At school he is serious but he still smiles and looks so cute and happy to see me. His friends have grown to accept and like me. Everything is going great, and I believe and feel it, but it still amazes me.

We are intimate. We kiss. He is a good kisser, and you can tell he has been looking forward to the physical part of our relationship, because he has never been physical with a girl before. We kiss. We touch. We go further. We are so deliriously happy. He doesn’t know how to act; he has never, ever felt this way before.

But I have, so naturally, I take the lead. He is cool with that, as long as it isn’t so obvious.

Him: [on facebook IM] hey

Me: Hey, what’s up?

Him: come over

Me: haha..Miss me already?

Him: lol well kinda, but also i wont see you for the next week, i’ve got to study so we might as well hang out for a while

Me: Sure! You know I love to spend time with you… lol I’ll ask my mom.

Him: k

I go to my mom. I tell her I’m going to my friend’s house to study, she asks a million questions, but then lets me go. It is 6 o clock.

Me: Want to walk up halfway?

Him: sure ill walk down the road and ill see you

Me: Okayy:)) Great!!

Him: lol see ya

Me:Do I bring anything?

Him: no lol just come over

We are happy. We are comfortable. People at school have accepted us, and he doesn’t care much anymore what people are thinkin about us. It’s amazing.

I wonder sometimes how come it took so long, and why there were setbacks. Then I realize, I didn’t let things go so easily…Totally should have done that.

This is what they say about waking up in the arms of a loved one. It just reminds me of his message a long time back, where he’d written a little 2 liners saying he’d wake up each morning with the warmth of my lips on his lips, the touch of my fingers on his skin, my breath in his throat and the beat of my heart, beating with his….. This was how it felt. This was so real. The first words I heard in the morning was “I love you”. And the morning was like it was custom designed for our new life. The fresh air, the sun, the green environment like an angel had just left it sparkling with happiness. The birds were singing in the courtyard. Something was so different, so lively. Beautiful beyond words. We joined our friends for morning tea. No one asked us anything, just greeted the newlyweds. It was our second day at the trip. We went a sort of hiking and it was so much fun. We all walked together, made jokes together. We walked all the way upto that old palace. There we went around for sightseeing. Then we went down to the river. I got a unique piece of rock for him from the river. I always used to get a rock for him whenever I went somewhere for a visit. Then we all made our way back home. It was almost evening when we left. We decided to tell it to our parents the other day. For today, we just wanted to celebrate the joy of being a part of the one we loved, and have always been in love with. We reached school, bid goodbye to other friends. They wished us goodluck. Then we left on his bike, he was dropping me home. I hold so tight onto him. Then he stopped at a certain place that he used to. Kissed me softly, which I returned. I ran my hands softly over his face and said “thanks”. We hugged and we both entered my home. He greeted my parents, they welcomed him. He sat for a cup of tea. Then after a short talk, he left. We didn’t reveal anything today. But from the look of my face, my parents must have found out that I’m really, really happy. I winked at him at the gate, and said “goodnight”. After a while, I got his message -”goodnight, my beloved wife.” I re-winded the two days in my mind till I fell asleep.

Everything is just getting better and better, it’s amazing. It’s like a miracle. I have just had the best weekend ever, I’m so in love, I’m floating, my head is in the clouds and everything is just wonderful.

Last night I drove over to my boy’s house. He had decided that he was going to cook me a meal so when I arrived there he’d set the table with beautiful flowers and petals on the table, it was so sweet. He gave me a huge hug as soon as he answered the door to me with delicate soft kisses on my lips, I felt dizzy, he just makes me feel so special I love it. I feel so secure and comfortable and deleriously happy when I am with him. He asked me when I want to eat so I said let’s leave it half an hour so we can have a drink first and a chat, so that is what we did. Our eyes were locked most of the time through talking, we were sat on his sofa and he had his arm around me with his fingers stroking my shoulder as we spoke, that sends tingles down my spine, it’s so lovely. He had cooked a gorgeous fish meal. He’s into his healthy food aswell which is great, although he had got a lovely chocolate sponge pudding as he knows that is my favourite ! perfect.. so while we ate we were both talking lots so the food got cold but it didn’t matter, we always have so much to say to eachother, especially after we’d had a few drinks. I was getting my words in a muddle and we were just laughing so much !! We then went out to his local bar. We met a couple of his friends which was nice, they told me how they can’t believe how well we are getting on and it’s just looking like such a great match !! I had to agree obviously. I think I was smiling stupidly all night long, looking back my face hurt because I was smiling or laughing so much, I’m just so happy and have this feeling of euphoria !

We went back to my boy’s house and put on some music and then we messed about dancing, sometimes slow and sometimes just being silly. Then we did a really romantic slow dance, he got so close to me, stoking and kissing me, it was just so beautiful and then we got properly entangled in a wonderfully long kiss and then at that point we decided it was time to go to bed and I was more than happy being in the same bed with him for the first time !

Finally, I had my wonderful boy to wake up to in the morning – late morning ! it was just so lovely to wake up and turn round and see his face there looking so peaceful, then he slightly stirred and opened his eyes slightly and then reached over to hold me tightly and yet again I was smiling like never before ! What a wonderful feeling of total love and security and being special.

Oh what a wonderful day it was! He called me this morning to ask if I was actually coming.. haha. I dialled him before I got out of home and oh boy, he was already there driving towards my way,  I just had to walk 3 minutes. We went to our dear cafe’. We chatted up a storm… like good old buddies. Smile was bright and shining on both our faces. He would compliment me here and there. No one mentioned a word bad about our past…… only the good times. Then I gave him the moment to let out what he had to say, how he felt at my absence. I listened, just listened and then he touched my head in his same old dear way. He said, sorry….. And I replied, “oh shut up! are you scared of heights?”….. He looked at me in amazement. I asked again – “Are you scared of heights?” He said no…… Then lets go to the fun park!… “Hey come on!” I insisted. And then he speeded his bike and we both reached the place. Oh columbus, my favorite game! It was wonderful and as it rose above and above, I asked him if I could grab his arm and he hugged me. We rose up to the sky, holding each other tightly. When we got that freefall, we screamed smiling and it went on and on….. wow, it gives me butterflies even now when I remember that moment. Then when we were so high up on the air, he looked at me in my eyes, we both hold the gaze looking deeply into each others’s eyes. And then we didn’t see anyone else, just each other. He softly kissed my forehead as I closed my eyes. I hugged him….. hugged him so tight. I don’t even remember how long the ride went on and when it stopped after that. We got down and walked silently arm in arm. After walking for quite a while, we sat on a bench and started smiling. Then we laughed……. with tears in our eyes. No one had to say anything, we had lived our true happiness. We had found the place we belong to…. each other. It was getting late. As we reached nearby my home. He stopped, I got down and looked at him. As I turned around, he said “I love you”. I looked back at him and he repeated, “I love you, I love you very very much”. I hugged him and we kissed…….. And I said, “I love you too”. He held my hand in the same beautiful way he does and slowly let me go. He drove back and I kept looking at the direction he went. I reached home. And after a while I got his message “sanu, I reached home safely….. love you”.  I called him and we talked just for a short while, we were spellbound, speechless…. We are, just so much in love with each other, once again.

 IT was good .we went on long drive , soft romantic music was gng on and it was wonderfull. and the best part was i got a feather that day itself in my balcony , it was placed as if its kept for me only . i felt so blessed . eternally blessed may god and angels keep placong signs and messages on my path to make me feel that i m on right path.thankyou soooooo much .

I am truly grateful that my girlfriend called me today!! She is back!! She called me and told me she loves me very very much!! We talked and talked on the phone!! I told her that I loved her very much!!  Thank you Universe!!! Thank you Universe!!!  Thank you Universe!!! Thank You God!! Thank You God!! Thank You God!! We talked and talked and decided that we wanted to resume our relationship!! I am so excited!! I am so excited! I am beyond belief , I can’t hardly believe how excited I truly am!! She asked to come visit her this weekend!! Whooppee!! I flew up there to see her!! I was so excited!! I couldn’t hardly contain my excitement and I was so happy!! Thank You God!! Thank you!! Thank You Universe! IT WAS THE BEST Weekend I have ever had!! I am so excited !! We spend the weekend wrapped in each others arms..I told her I said I love you so much Baby!! I said I love you Sweetpea!!

I am so excited!! I am so excited and extremely happy!! we are talking again..she told me how much she loves me!! Thank You universe!! We kissed and we spend Saturday and Sunday together ..We are together!!! Awesome!! Awesome!! Beautiful..She is gorgeous, her smile lights up the room, her eyes glow like diamonds shining so brightly in the night!! the glow of her skin is so beautiful, when she smiles at me I just melt, and I get so excited to kiss those lush lips and taste that lipstick she is wearing!! I am so excited!! Thank you Universe!! Thank you Universe!! Thank You God!!