July 2010,

Not many times that I really welcome the day with such a beautiful feeling. And I will cherish each day like today for tomorrow, and the next day, and the rest of my life.
It’s been years since I had a girlfriend, and we broke up 3 years ago. I felt really lonely and empty ever since, seems love had been taken away from me forever.
But last month, a miracle happened. I managed to get a grip on my feelings, and ready to start a new life, and begin to feel happy again. Just being happy, sometimes for no reason. I felt gratitude for the things that I already had, instead of wishing and longing for things that I don’t have.
And suddenly I began to think about how wonderful my relationship with my ex were. How we care about each other, how we were deeply in love. It’s like a flashback of a teen romantic movie. I remember how we started to feel different about each other, then I remember the time we actually go out together, eating ice cream, watching silly romantic movies, and many funny things happened around us when we’re together, just enough to make us laugh.
It’s like yesterday that I actually stood in front of her house at midnight, just to give her a rose.

And few weeks later, I asked her to be my girl, and she said yes.
I still remember our first kiss, in the car inside the rain, it was awkward but romantic, and I couldn’t stop smiling that night!

I remember all the good times that we had, how we cherish each other, we cuddled and kissed, enjoyed the time we had together.

Although now it seems that it was already ended, I prefer to remember only the good times, and in my heart, I thank her for the love that she had given me. And I thank God for giving me a lover through this person. And if I’m not destined to be with her, I believe that I’m still destined to love and to be loved by a beautiful girl, the right girl which God will deliver to me at the right time and place.

I think I’m ready for love, and expecting whoever matches my vibration, I’m sure that whoever that is, this is the one for me.

And one day, suddenly, a beep from my cell phone. It’s a text. From my ex…..

She just said hi, and asking me how am I doing. I replied that I’m fine.
It’s been years that we had so minimal contact, so this was kind of weird.
Then she asked about my family, how are they doing now. I told her that everyone’s fine.
Then afterwards, she texted me often, just a chit chat, told me how she’s doing now, and finally she told me that she missed me, and she want to meet me.

I agreed, although I’m not really sure what will happen next. Then we go out for a coffee. Although seems like things have changed, the chemistry is still there. We had a really great time. Many laughs, many stories. Seems like we never had enough time, but we had to call it a night.

Then for next days, we met for a casual walk to the mall, go out to dinner, for a movie. I wasn’t aware that during our time together, we always holding hands.

When I finally realised it, I asked her casually, what’s up with the holding hands. She didn’t say anything. She just looked into my eyes. There’s tears in her beautiful eyes, and I suddenly realise how much I love her, and that moment I knew that she still love me.
And then all of a sudden, she kissed me and hugged me. She said that she never stop loving me, and she understand if this will not go the way she want to be, but she thanked me for giving her a chance to be together even if this is only for a moment.
I didn’t say anything. Then we kissed. All of a sudden, the beautiful memories rise again, I finally got the love I wanted, and the girl is actually her!
We cuddled and kissed, enjoying our time together.
And finally, I asked her casually, “Is this mean that we’re back together?”. She didn’t answer, instead she kissed me passionately. I think it’s a yes.
I will always remember the month June. The month that I finally got a girlfriend, which happens to be my beautiful old girlfriend.