After an absolutely amazing weekend with my soul mate, I’m back to work and my usual day to day activites and I miss being with him so much. I look at the phone and I want to hear his voice or get a text from him, I really want to see his face and hold onto him and kiss him. Even when I’ve just put the phone down to him my heart yearns to be with him again. He called me yesterday while I was at work and asked me if I had any particular plans for the night so I said that I was just going to go to the gym. He asked that if I didn’t mind not going that he was thinking he’d like to take me out so he said put something nice on and get a bit dressed up and then I’ll pick you up at 7.30pm. I was so excited !! I’d only been away from him for the day and he clearly couldn’t keep away from me either, what a lovely boyfriend I have. He’s just so unbelieveable, he makes me feel so special it’s just amazing, it’s more and more than I could ever have drempt of. So I spent the rest of the afternoon thinking of what I could wear and decided to put on my leggings and boots with a slightly see through shirt from Guess that I bought a few weeks ago (infact I bought it with the intention of wearing on a date before we’d met !). So that is what I wore and he was more than happy with that. He looked as gorgeous as ever when he turned up at my house. He wore some smart dark blue jeans which fit him perfectly and make him look so sexy. With a white t shirt and a black v neck jumper on top. Oh he just looks so divine, I want to eat him up every time I see him, he just takes my breath away. The more I see him and the more I get to know him the more attractive I find him and the more our chemistry ignites, it’s just amazing. He took me to a restaurant about a ten minute drive from here, it’s quite posh and you can have drinks at the bar first so we did that for the first half hour. As always we found a little booth where we sat and he had his arms around me  – ahhhhh i’m back in heaven !!! And then we were taken to our table and had an absolutely amazing meal. We spent a couple of hours there, just talking and laughing, enjoying our food and enjoying eachother’s company. Both of us said that we feel like we’ve known eachother for way longer than we have and that we could never imagine our lives without eachother anymore. I love that he’s so open about his feelings and he’s so honest about everything with me. I trust him implicintly and I thank my lucky stars that he is my double in so many ways.

we had a wonderful evening, such a lovely surprise for me even though i’d only been back to work for one day ! He drove me home and then came in for a while. We held eachother and we had passionate kisses. It was so beautiful and then again when it was time for him to leave to go home he held my face and he looked deeply into my eyes, he looked slightly sad at the thought of leaving me but then his lips turned into a massive smile and he looked slightly nervous and said to me ‘you know what.. I’m definately falling in love with you and I’ve never been so happy in my life’ .. that was my biggest surprise of all ! That brought a few tears to my eyes and we held eachother for a while longer and then when I could finally talk I said to him ‘I’m falling in love with you too and we will be happier with every day’

WOW WEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!!!

Today is thursday and now I am missing him like crazy. I’ve had 2 days of not seeing him and I want to be with him now. We’ve text eachother a lot and I’ve spoken to him twice yesterday and once so far today. Now we are in a routine where we’ll always speak to eachother before we go to bed so whoever goes to bed first calls the other so I will be speaking to him in the next few minutes.. and can’t wait to hear his voice on the phone. Every morning when I wake up he is the first thing on my mind and straight away I think am I going to see him today. Waking up with him is the best, it’s just such a wonderful feeling and I have that to look forward to at the weekend. He told me he thinks about me all the time and is always planning ahead in his mind, which is exactly the same as I do. I have thought about so many things I want to do with him. I want him to come with me to Cambridge and meet my best friend and God daughter. I want us to go on holiday together. I’ve been trying to figure out in my head how I want our wedding to be but I’ll keep that to myself for now. For now I’m just so happy in this relationship and I’m so happy that all my wishes have been granted and that I have my most perfect man I could ever have wished for. My friends are eating their words now because they told me I was being too fussy and waiting for Mr Perfect.. well it appears they were right but they didn’t know that I’d get him, they thought i’d always be looking ! My life is so wonderful and I’m going to speak to my beautiful gorgeous man now before I go off to dream land. I love him so much.

and i feel so content, so happy.. now that he’s mine i can stop thinking about it… I can study! i feel amazing…

We are getting closer and closer.

It’s Easter weekend and I have lots of lovely activities planned with my boy. We had a really relaxed day today, both of us had been out with friends last night as we were both feeling a bit worse for ware and didn’t really feel like doing much. We text eachother when we were feeling a bit human and out of bed and showered ! Then we planned that I’d go over to his and we just watch TV and DVDs, drink lots of tea, eat snacks and kiss and cuddle up a lot ! So this is exactly what we did. It was just such a lovely relaxing day, we both had our trackies on and sat in his bed and watched films and we cuddled up the whole time, it was just what we both needed after a busy week at work. Sometimes we got passionate and then we just lay in eachother’s arms again and got more tea. Then my boy made us some dinner which was so nice as I really don’t like cooking when I’m not feeling that great so it was just wonderful to be pampered, cooked for and cuddled all day long. Today was a beautiful day and one I’d like to have many more days similar. It made me feel that things are right, it was just what I wanted and just what I needed and he needed. A great start to the long weekend. I came home late in the evening as we both thought it would be best for us to sleep seperately so that we could get a good night’s sleep and be back on top form for tomorrow.

On saturday I woke up feeling all refreshed after a lovely long catch up on my sleep. I must be feeling so relaxed and comfortable and content with my man because I am sleeping so well these days, it must mean that my mind knows this is the right way of life for me. I called him after I had my breakfast and he sounded full of joys and had also slept well and was looking forward to spending another day with me too !

He came over and picked me up and we decided to go and do a bit of shopping as the sales are on. We looked for things we thought would look good on eachother ! It was such fun, I ended up getting some shoes with a bit of a heel and a couple of tops which I will wear when we go out for dates. He got some jeans which looked great on him and a shirt which was quite fitted and showed off his great physique, he looked so sexy !

We then drove off into the coutry side and took a walk. He held my hand all the way. We talked and talked and again found that we have even more interests, it seems that we really have got all the same interests, I can’t talk to anybody like I can talk to him, it’s so great. We have spiritual conversations all the time and he thinks in the same way as I do. He’s also into massage and reflexology and all the alternative therapies I’ve learnt and practise, there’s just so much going on it’s amazing ! I just love being with him, talking to him and sharing our interests. It excites me that I can talk so openly to him and share my opinions and he understands everything. This also seems to encourage our attraction and ignites our chemistry even more as we feel closer and closer, I just love it, I love it so much, being with him is so great. It hurts my heart when I’m away from him now, he’s such a part of me, I just want to be with him every hour of every day. He is definately my soul mate as I feel it so much, I feel the way he was drawn to me in the beginning, we have such a strong connection, it’s like absolutley nothing could ever come between us. I’m so grateful for the love of my life, i’m so happy to be with him – I give my utter sincere thanks to the Universe and to God for bringing to me my perfect match and I’m so happy beyond my wildest dreams.

I have just come back home from spending the most wonderful Easter weekend with my boy. I have had such a lovely time and I truly feel even closer to him than ever. He makes me feel special, he makes me feel loved. I utterly trust him so much, it’s great to know that he misses me when we’re apart as much as I miss him. I know everything he tells me is totally the truth and he’s been up front with me from the beginning and I’ve known where I stand with him from the start. He is so special, the man of my dreams, he’s my second half and I feel it now so much when he’s not with me. I wish I was with him now and I’ve only been home for half an hour ! Still I’ll be seeing him in a couple of days again and he’s just sent me a lovely text to say that he’s missing me already and to have sweet dreams and a relaxing sleep. THANK YOU SO MUCH GOD FOR MY WONDERFUL RELATIONSHIP.

Okay so I don’t know how it came about, but in some way ive been holding myself back from actually making too many changes. I think its probably a combination of that seed fear, but also maybe wanting to make sure I got everything right before I set everything into motion.

So now im flipping the switch on it. And now it isn’t about things that are “going” to happen its about things that Are happening. I don’t care what needs to be done, im flipping the switch, things are changing and if something isnt exactly perfect I can swing around and make other changes to pick up the pieces.

I don’t have to get it right the first time.
I don’t have to get it right the first time, just get it pretty darn close, and I don’t have any problem with that because I know so much.

we kissed in the morning, he seemed a little rushed and we didnt talk at lunch much. we talked after school a little, he seemed like he wanted to spend time with me but then he went home and now he hasnt been online
but i know how he is.. i know he likes me so much…

So far I have believed I can do many things, and even after putting them into practice and not getting any meaningful results I still believe I can do them, quite powerfully actually. I think part of the problem could be something called Seed Fear, which is in essence a fear of success. More precisely a subconscious fear of the consequences of success, as it would be seen in a controversial light by other people with social power.

In a couple months Lightworker.com will be having an activation for transmuting seed fears, but I feel that’s a little too far off for my liking so im asking my Higher Self to transmute all of my seed fears right now so that I can do many of the things I have been trying, but failing to do, and other stuff that has been just out of reach.

Or at least… to Lemme Have It!
And just pour those things on whether im scared about it on the inside or not. I tend to have balls of steel when it comes to things like this. I mean if im asking for it with fervor, and I know it’s my destiny… then it don’t matter if im secretly afraid of how big my success might become… because when it does freakishly happen and I was expecting it all along I Can Handle those fears in stride.

There wont be a mob of people with pitchforks, there wont be a hanging noose, and there wont be any insane asylums or courtrooms either because I can keep that stuff from ever happening. Because I already have the power of Free Will control to deny others the power to do those things.

And I guess that applies to getting rid of certain things obstructing my path too, which by themselves are a separate issue but overall were put there to hold me or slow me down.

In the past things might have been different, with people attacking, hurting, or destroying me for what I could do or what I believed in. But, even the power of others to do those things is now under my control, I can make it backfire on them, I can dissolve the very bonds of the offense, and I can also just push them out of my life. So while my Inner Child might be afraid, its okay and those things aren’t a problem anymore because my Inner Child can also do something about that too.

I guess my first stop will be…
► No more offensive, oppressive attachments like spirits, parasites, or dark energy.
► I get results from manifesting Body Changes.

But following that there are other changes im making too…
► Manifesting the fortune promised.
► Ability to manifest changes in my world instantly – jumping paths instantly or nearly instantly rather than making a smooth transition between them.
► And of course all that other Neato stuff I have planned – the Telekinesis, Teleportation, Phasing, and Mirror Walking powers.

Our parents are still deciding on the date of our real marriage. But it’s just a formality. We are already seen as a couple and today I was invited to his home. I remembered the last times I went there, specially the first one, it was, indeed, very special. And today was even more so. I started this morning by looking as fresh as dew, and getting my perfect subtle makeover for the day. My mom draped me in saree, gifted by him. I had just done watching myself in the mirror for the last time, when he appeared at the doorstep. Yes, I wasn’t going alone this time. After all, as we always said, we are one. When he saw me, he was spellbound for a while. Just stood there, dumb, then I snapped. And he put that grin on his face. He looked like he had just seen the most precious diamond in front of his eyes. Oh well, he was looking nice too. But I was too busy noticing his reaction after seeing me. Actually, then I noticed him, and he looked like my greek God as well. He greeted my parents while he couldn’t keep his eyes off me. It seemed like he had lost words to speak. He was hurrying as if he’d get harry potter’s broom and fly me off with him. And so did he, he took me off to his home in no time. We reached there, I greeted his, umm.. our family. They looked so happy to have me back with them. I stayed with them for a while, noticing the happiness, as well as desperation in my hubby’s face. They left us to “talk” and said they’d call us back for lunch. Well, we did talk. But before that he just wrapped me in his arms and said “thank you”. Then he said he’s eager to hold me so tight all day long, but is only afraid of ruining my ensemble. Well, he was right. We stayed close to each other and talked about a lot of things. The smile was never fading away from our faces. It turns out they wanted to invite at least one more person from my family, but it was his idea to call only me. We talked about our school days, we talked about my first visit to his home, we talked about us and how much it took to take us here. Then we said nothing. Our eyelaces hugged each other’s, our faces chose to stay so nearby, like we were melting into each other. We kissed, just like the way he had kissed me when I’d come here for the first time. Just like I had ever received a kiss from anyone for the first time, and that was of course, him. My only love. The only person in my life, ever. And I’m so glad I have him in my life now, as my own, as a part of me. Much later, we were called upstairs. I talked and laughed with everyone during meal. They all said how happy they were to see us together, and thanked me for being with their son through his good times and bad, through his and mine ups and downs. Everyone seemed happy, of course they were. The day seemed short. We got a time of our own after sometime. I checked his room, his cupboard, his drawers. I was everywhere. He had still decorated them with my old gifts, even ribbons and wrappings of my gifts. I had noticed them all when I’d come here last time. He still hadn’t removed any of those. I was in his life all the time, I am, and I will be with him, forever. When he dropped me back home, he said the same. That he was, he is, and he will be, with me forever, and for always.

Okay, so I woke up in the morning. And I dialled my sweet husband to wish him good morning. His same old dear sleepy lazy voice wished me a good morning back. I pretended as if I was making a cup of coffee for him, and he’ll have to get up for that. Well, it was a huge day, we were going to disclose it to our parents. I had very little work to do, though. I just had to cross my fingers and wait for him. I prayed and prayed to my dear God. By the lunch time, I got his call… He, the same old prankster I always knew, almost scared me. He just spoke two words and went silent. Then on phone I heard a lady’s voice “dear, when are you coming home?”. His mom! Wow, I was the happiest person in this world. In fact, I am. I went speechless, just “er….umm….soon..” could come out of my mouth. Then he took the phone and went nonstop about how everything went. He just sat in front of everyone and disclosed it in one sentence. And everyone said “it’s great, that’s all we ever wanted – your happiness.” Then some laughter moments, and many happy moments. Then he came upstairs in a minute to dial me. Now everyone was about to have their meal, and he didn’t know what was coming….. he had to deal all the jokes on his own. But ah, I missed the moment, wish I were there. I had my meal too, not speaking a word. Then about an hour or so, he showed up at my doorstep. He was not alone. He had brought his mom with him! That was a surprise! Maybe he paid back my act of showing up at his house with my aunt. I greeted them and stayed silent. They and my parents started talking. And it was already obvious, so in a short while, he told my mom and dad that he wants to share his life with me. And in fact, most of the people who know us have already accepted the two of us as one. What could my parents say? They just said good things. I even complimented him in my heart for bringing mom along, so that only positive could be heard, yeah! His mom said some really good things about me, like she always does. My mom had tears in her eyes. Everything went fine. We all talked for a while. And I invited them both to my room and talked for a while. When they were about to leave, he sent his mom to have a word with my family. And he secretly stole a kiss from me. When they left, I was scared and blushing all over. No one bothered me, though. Just everyone said I made it easier for them! haha….. I couldn’t have stayed home after that. I called my best friend and went to meet her. I spoke out each word to her, and I was so, so happy. Then guess what, my love called me again, asked me how it went, and came over to meet me again. We three spent the day together, like our good old fun days. Then my best friend left, and we had an hour to spend with each other. Oh, seems like the only thing I want to do is spend each moment with him, and the only thing he wants is be near me, look at me, talk to me, all the time, every day, every second of the day.

I see Him all the time, but just enough. Seems he likes me more and more everyday! I can tell from his body language, he is happy to see me. Although at school he is pretty conservative about how he feels about me, when we hang out he is more into it. We kiss, we kiss til my mouth is sore. I can’t tell if he wants to move on from that stage or if he’s just happy..This is sexy enough for him.

Me: So, I guess you think I’m pretty, huh?

Him: Yes, very pretty.

Me: Beautiful?

Him: Yeah now stop asking.

Me: hm. Seems I have to dig for compliments from you!

Him: I like you, you are beautiful. And funny.

Me: Haha, flattered…Really, thanks. You’re wonderfullllll

Him: Aw *blushes*

He changes topics. He does get awkward sometimes. But he seems to be more confident when we start nearing each other..looking at each ours lips every now and then.. I plant one on him and there we are, making out…Oh, its amazing.

I want to feel his hardness…

Ive dreamt about this.

My friends tell me I’m lucky!